The photo on my left came up on my Facebook memories today. That was 7 years ago. You guys have seen along of my transformations from overweight to now but I had also got to a point where I was not being healthy. I was obsessed with what I ate, I was exercising waaaayyy too much and I was waaay too mean to the girl I saw in the mirror.
It was a blessing tho. I KNEW, I just KNEW at this point that I was at my limit. Overworked, overly obsessing about food, overtraining and over feeling like a failure because I could not live upto my own expectations.
The harder we are on ourselves the bigger the barrier we put up to block out the potential pain that can get in. But if we block out the pain we also block out the joy and I was certainly not experiencing joy and I was also being horrible to myself because if I was awful to myself then it didn’t matter what anyone else could possibly say, I had already heard worse from my own self talk.
A lot has happened in those 7 years... like a lot! But nothing more life changing than my attitude towards myself. I am proud of who I now am. I train so that I can enjoy the benefits of being strong and having the added bonus of focus and a happy mood. I don’t really know what I eat sometimes 😂🙈 my nutrition is so on point with my Herbalife supplements that I am good some days and other days... meh, no harm, I just want to feel healthy and have energy. I am also unapologetically speaking my truth. I don’t say sorry because “I’m just a mum” or I spent the day playing, or I didn’t manage to get out of my pajamas. Part of my purpose is being a great mum to my kids (by my own definition of great) so I spend my days living my life to my own expectations (which are far more realistic these days) and I’m telling you that being skinny SUCKED! But being strong, happy, focused, fulfilled and fit is pretty awesome.